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Beautifully Broken

Authenticity is what we all search for, and rarely find. With every flaw, every wound chapters form to make sense of my incredible life. Words haven’t flowed smoothly lately. In fact, words are dry and hardened, and evacuation is difficult and infrequent. All the unwanted waste accumulates, rotting flesh that can’t rebuild. In truth, I […]

Balance

bal·ance ˈbaləns/ noun 1. an even distribution of weight enabling someone or something to remain upright and steady. Around this time one year ago, I prepared for a journey. An adventure to reconnect with my wounded self and embrace the healing powers of nature. It was a beautiful journey drawn short due to medical reasons. […]

Weight

weight wāt/ noun noun: weight 1. a body’s relative mass or the quantity of matter contained by it, giving rise to a downward force; the heaviness of a person or thing 2. a heavy object, especially one being lifted or carried. Clinically speaking, once I was classified as morbidly obese. My weight was comparable to […]

Thankful

thankful [thangk-fuh l] adjective 1. feeling or expressing gratitude; appreciative. I awoke this morning well before sunrise, eager to connect with the ocean before running a half marathon race. I have been greatly anticipating both, as I have not been to the sea since April, and I have not run actively since March. I walked […]

Cookies and Love

The over and underexposed snapshots of the past 13149 days are fleeting around my head today marking the passage of time. Over the course of the last 1878 weeks and three days I have come to understand that there is a beauty in living, and for that, I am appreciative. I am thankful for water […]

Absence

ab·sence ˈabsəns/ noun the state of being away from a place or person. “the letter had arrived during his absence” an occasion or period of being away from a place or person. plural noun: absences “repeated absences from school” the nonexistence or lack of. “she found his total absence of facial expression disconcerting” When I […]

Fully Relying On God

On my right hand, I have a tattoo of a frog holding a pencil. It’s my note to myself: writing is a gift. Therefore, I am Fully Relying On God to write. One would think to have a frog as a symbol of faith undoubtedly speaks to my love for frogs. No! Over the past […]

Steps

Lao Tzu, is most notably known for his quote, “The journey of a thousand miles begins with one step.” The quote holds true, however, as I hike the Pacific Crest Trail I know that my journey did not begin with one step. Rather, it began as a battle many years ago. Of course, I am taking Tzu […]

The Giver

I spent four very long days on the trail confusing people, no doubt by my birth name, Crystal Gail. I’d introduce myself as such, and of course, I would be asked any of the following: “What song did I sing to get that name,”Was this before you shaved your head,”  or my favorite, “Please tell […]